People say that they relate best with people that look like them. I…. can’t say I totally agree. I feel like an outcast of my own race….like nobody can really understand or relate to me.
I really don’t see the world in black and white. I NEVER thought that someone was better than me because of the color of my skin. It someone is an ass to me, I don’t immediately resort to thoughts that the person is a racist.
Sadly I feel alone in this mindset.
Interestingly…now that I am an adult, I feel like a person with a backstage pass to the black community as I grew up in a predominantly white community ( though it was also diverse with people from a variety of cultures ). I see things that horrify me….people tearing each other down because they may have darker skin than others. People at odds because this person is from the Caribbean and another is African American.
The intolerance to other races…even using slurs…even using offensive slurs to refer to fellow black people…is mesmorizing.
There are great things too, like people watching for you, and making sure you call to say you got home safely, and how we can truly unite for causes like Trayvin Martin’s murder….but still the interracial relations trouble me.
I just don’t know anymore… I just feel so alone and wonder if In truly am that naive or stupid to believe that we are in a time where racial relations are good…where I am not warned about trusting certain groups if people just because I am black and they are white. It breaks my heart to see the world this way….and that it won’t change anytime soon.